We Deserve Better

Most entertainment today is like junk food. 

Any sort of cleverness has been reduced to hiding some Easter egg in a scene. Skilled acting under a skilled director is not necessary as long as it turns a profit.

We are okay with being dumb. We don’t want anything complex. 

We want it deep fried with extra cheese but add some mayo mixed with sriracha and call it aioli and add some micro greens so we can pretend it’s more complicated than it truly is.

We settle for something just slightly better than our shitty lives to distract us. 

My trouble is that my life isn’t actually all that shitty, it’s just a challenge. I want a better distraction.

Drip, drip, drip

Some folks know the real me and by the real me, I mean my birth name and location. 

The real me is often hidden by myths and legends and to be honest there are times I wonder if I have ever been honest with myself as to who I truly am. 

The character I play is often well received so I will play it with a flourish. Alcohol helps if not required. But sometimes I find that guy to be a jerk. He’s a bit of a phony. He gets on my nerves. But the alternative is to end the scene and let the room go quiet. 

I wonder who is the truer me. 

I think people like the sober me only because they know after a few drinks, the drunk me starts to show up. 

It starts with a giggle and then I will hear “There he is”.

He is certainly better about not giving a shit. I envy him that.

I wonder if I would tolerate him as a roommate. 

Anxiety or alcohol. Sounds like a problem.

We were only one timezone away from 5 o’clock

“We heard so much about you!”

 I was greeted by strangers or at least they were strangers to “Sober Timmy”.  More than once someone has restarted a conversation for a day or two before and I could not recall meeting them. 

I glanced at my friends, then at the bartender and then back at the strangers. “I can assure you that all of the stories were exaggerated.”

I was a little relieved that this couple from the suburbs had not met me before.

Then we did shots of tequila.