I need a day off, I think

I'm so close to saying, "Fuck you."

Only I don't actually say, "Fuck you," you just cease to exist to me. I just stop all contact.

I don't pick up your phone calls.

But I ask myself, "Why now? Why not then? What has changed?"

I usually try to take a step away before I make any lasting decisions. I try to see things from a different angles.

Probably part of me wants to hear her say, "Please don't go."