so, at lunch I'm thinking

"If not me, then who?"

"If not now, then when?"

and I'm just about to tell myself to "shut the fuck up"

when then I think

then?

T-H-E-N

is that even a word?

it has to be, I assured myself

but I didn't believe me

so I took out a piece of paper and spelled it out

t-h-e-n

then

"Yup, that's a word" I said and under my breath I added "spaz"