the grave has never frightened me

i don't know what it was about last night but hate and despair were battling it out

the work load was actually light, comparatively, but the whole place bothered me. i'm glad i was by myself.

after i finished i thought about getting hammered which i never really thought about before there have been times when i've gotten cocked but it always just sort of happened. it was never my goal.

I don't drink locally, so I drove downtown. My regular place is on a one way street off of a rather busy roadway. I looked down the street to see if there were people waiting to get in, it gets busy on occasion. There wasn't a line so I drove around the block so I could drive past the windows to look inside. The night manager was talking to the staff at the next door establishment, inside karaoke night was underway, the bar area was packed, the floor area - crowded, but still I thought about going in. Possibly upstairs was less busy. I'm starting to like upstairs.

I could have parked in a zone whose restriction didn't become active until the next morning and just pick my truck up then, I could have parked by a local train station and taken the train in and worried about the truck later but it all seemed rather too involved just to get drunk for a reason I wasn't even certain of. It's hard to forget when you don't know what you're forgetting.

I ended up just driving home, the Deadliest Catch was being replayed on the Discovery Channel when I turned on the tv. I agreed to put off the heavy drinking for the next day until I got a call right before midnight.

"You sleeping yet?"

"Nope"

"I need some invites done up. They thought they would have gotten more invites than they did, so they need more"

"Can I change them a bit or do they have to be the same?"

"They should be the same. They need to look the same. Nobody is going to really examine them but they have to be close."

"I may have trouble getting envelopes"

"I don't need envelopes"

"So you mean, you need the invites forged"

"Yeah, I guess, if that's what you want to call it"

"Well, it's just that I need to know you want it forged. It makes a difference."

"Right, I see. You don't sound happy. If you can't do it, then you can't do it but I told the guy if anybody can do it, you can. I'll have an invite tomorrow, they need to be done by tomorrow night"

So, I'll be by the second office tonight. I'll also be able to get a start on printing more of those brochures which I should have started last night but didn't.

If I finish early, I'm definitely drinking tonight.

I have the cab money home already separated.